THE INTEGRATED LIFE

There is an intensity with this disease that doesn’t diminish with time. Instead, it grows. _________________________________

You would think that life would get easier, the longer this goes—that I would sync into a daily rhythm, that I would day-by-day experience a deeper understanding of “It is well with my soul.”

The one thing I can say with assurance is that my life is never mundane or rote.

At no time have I been a creature of routine. Ordinary scares me more than a little, the day-in-day-out minutes that can neither be remembered nor retrieved.

In this context, you could say with confidence that I was made for this. That is, the predictable unpredictability of this circumstance—
The anticipation of the unexpected,
The challenging lab reports,
The bursts of energy followed by profound fatigue,
The encouraging news chased with the bad.

What I have always been adept at is integrating the good moments with the hard. This is my superpower. The thing I revere most about the woman that I am.

Life, in my world, has never been “either/or” but an amalgamation of difficult and delight. This integration is how I approach everything, the lines perpetually blurred between responses that fold in both the sweetness of eagerness and the intensity of angst.

I have learned in recent days to counter harsh news with the quiet of my breath,
to sit with the majesty of my own humanity no matter what is,
then respond to any negative with a thought-through battle plan.

This is what it feels like to lived integrated—
Not an infatuation with pretty, perfect lives
but an obsession with making the exquisite connection between what is difficult and what is divine.

This integrated life. It’s allowing the what is to come in, to infiltrate ever corner with its lessons, and change us in the end.

So, what are we so afraid of? Why do we build emotional fortresses to block out the unfamiliar and unknown?

Rigidity is the offspring of unreasoned and unreconciled fear.
Let that sink in.

My willingness to challenge my thinking through this unexpected season is the single most important step I have taken toward saving my life.

In context of my healing, this integrated mindset has fueled a revolution of the soul that not only feeds a curiosity of alternative approaches but captures the best of both western and alternative medicines to cohesively formulate a bold and unconventional plan.

You may think it impossible to gather these opposing forces in the same “virtual” room.
You might imagine these formidable voices of both disciplines aren’t interested in what the “other” has to say. But the world of medicine is changing at a speed undefined and uncontained. And an open conversation is fast-becoming the only sensible way.

I have said [with a measure of sass] that I live in the land of woo woo. Not long ago that land was a lonely place. But now its borders are nearly undetectable, its inhabitants now the finest healing thinkers of our day.

Naturally, because of my “situation,” many come to me for medical advice. I’m never daunted by the responsibility that comes with pouring into other people’s lives—
Not because I believe I have all the answers,
Not because I have some magic potion, silver bullet, or secret cure,
But because I have an unshakeable belief in an overarching integrated approach that has not only calmed and saved me but awakened me to an aspect of my personhood that I revere above all else:

That is, the ability to make sense of two seemingly opposing points of view. Not only what exists in the world surrounding us, but what lives inside of me…and you.

NOTES:

 If you ask my Integrative MD what her goal is for my treatment she would reply, “To keep Janene alive long enough for medicine to catch up to a cure.”

That “cure” we are all hoping for is not a single remedy but a personalized “cocktail” consisting of [most often] many ingredients designed explicitly for the needs of the patient, based upon what our bodies have to say.

Personalized and sophisticated testing is now taking the guesswork out of the treatment plan. Gone are the days of the one-size-fits-all approach to medicine. Our own bodies are informing the cure.

Nearly every day someone reaches out to me [in good faith] touting the reported “miraculous benefits” of popular remedies. One of these is Ivermectin, which is enjoying a surprising popularity given the disparaging reports of recent former days.

On March 29th, in Unnecessary Drama, I shared my personal experience with Ivermectin. I’ve included those words again here…but this time my story is followed up with the results of my testing which exposed Ivermectin to my cancer cells in the lab.

[excerpt from 3/29]
Despite the lack of clinical human trials, the use of Ivermectin, repurposed to fight cancer, has become the topic of the day. Isn’t it remarkable that a drug so despised and defamed by the pharmaceutical industry just months ago is now experiencing a popularity of epic proportions? In fact, several states are actively lobbying to ensure this medication becomes available as an over-the-counter option for the treatment of diseases of all kinds.

My opinion—just as there was a “run-away” advocacy for the vaccine, we are now seeing this precise rabid championing of a repurposed application we know little about.

Anecdotally…a select few of my cancer coherts have added Ivermectin to their cancer regime with varied results. Those of us who are “testing” the medication are the “lab rats” with very little to lose.

Personally…when my numbers began to climb again I recently added Ivermectin to a long list of integrative supplements that are keeping me alive [not an overstatement]. Following the [extensive] research available at https://www.brightworkresearchtreatment.com/ I determined to add Ivermectin as a daily supplement for life.

My results…eight weeks of diligent use proved to have no positive impact on the aggressive growth of the cancer in my body. In fact, based on this “in tandem” cancer growth, while there is no way to substantiate this, I am left wondering whether the Ivermectin actually aggravated the cancer cells. Again, there are no human trials available other than the ones we are living through/in real time now.

Because of the lack of concrete evidence that Ivermectin was effectively fighting the cancer, my team and I have determined to stop the drug and retest in 10 days to see if there is any measurable, applicable data to provide direction in one way or another. I will be sure to update you.

The most important outcome of all of this is the constant reminder that our bodies are uniquely and mysteriously designed and there is no “one size fits all” magic pill.

The only magic that I know of is persistency, consistency, and dedication to education, metabolic nutrition, and copious testing through blood draws, cancer cell growth tests, and DNA exploration through extraordinary methods such as DATAR.

UPDATED TESTING RESULTS:

On Friday, May 30, my DATAR results reported that IVERMECTIN as a treatment against my cancer impacted cell death by only 33%, far below other repurposed/off label medications such as: Propranolol, Metformin, Melatonin, Cannabidiol, Genistein, Quercetin [and others].

PATIENT ADVOCACY WITH A PLAN:

If you would like to learn more about my Integrated Patient Advocacy please fill out the Contact form on the Sanctuary Living website or reach out to jkraft@sanctuaryliving.net