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THE DRIVE
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THE DRIVE

Someone wise once told me that if you want to have a difficult conversation with your child, take him for a drive. Over decades, clocking countless hours, one boy and then another would load into the womb of our SUV and we’d wind through the canyons while I waited quietly until all the guarded and...

STAY CLOSE
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STAY CLOSE

I would look in the mirror. Bald. So strange. So severe. The Vain in me whispered, “hide,” The Victor in me shouted, “share.” We are, each of us, so exquisite, so Otherworldly. And yet we wander from the origin of our true belonging to this hunger to fit in. Bald kept me close.  It made...

TAKING TERRITORY
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TAKING TERRITORY

I live at the edge of a forest. When we lived at the beach, I used to rake the sand in front of our cottage, so I know it won’t surprise you that I rake the dirt under the trees. I have full awareness that the forest doesn’t belong to me, but I take great...

MUDDY WATERS
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MUDDY WATERS

If you stand on the very edge of the dock and gaze intently below,  your eyes can cut through nearly ten feet of green-blue water before the murky depths cloak what lies beneath. There are those who have turned “murky” into big business, their words scattering to and fro like sunlight dancing on the waves....

RE-DISCOVERING HOME
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RE-DISCOVERING HOME

I still marvel at how Ron and I just sort of fell into our mutual passion. My career in architectural design and Ron’s ability to do nearly anything became like magnets for sad houses begging for new life.  I think we all agree that there are few things more thrilling than the search for the...

i AGREE
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i AGREE

My entire life I’ve been known for my hair. I remember after attending the Senior Standouts high school assembly and receiving the award for Prettiest Hair, I drove home, ran into my mama’s room and collapsed on her bed in tears, the shame overtaking me that while others received recognition for “Best All Around,” and...

The Agony of Choice
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The Agony of Choice

NOTE TO READER:  We’ve all become so black and white. It’s easier that way.  We blanket our opinions over everything so we don’t have to look again, question our thinking, dig in. I think my title, “The Agony of Choice,” is on point in deep and difficult ways. We want someone to decide for us....

BE CAREFUL NOT TO LOSE YOURSELF
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BE CAREFUL NOT TO LOSE YOURSELF

Be Careful Not To Lose Yourself – that’s what I tell myself as I feel my stomach tighten and my fingers clench. This is not me, the one that reveres understanding yet understands that there are things in unseen places that I may never fully know. How is it that I allow all of “this”...