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The Knowing
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The Knowing

Sometimes I skip to the end when the suspense is just too much to bear. Then I go back, page by page, and read all the juicy word-by-word detail. It’s always been easier for me. The knowing, that is.  In it, I can center in and settle down. I can fall into the story with...

MANY THINGS
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MANY THINGS

My heartbeat plays like a violin most of the time. Not quite sorrowful. Not quite serene. There is this longing for something hoped for or remembered. Like big dogs running down the hillside. Like little boys wrestling on the lawn. Today, the nine of us will walk through fresh fallen snow and mention more than...

THE DISSECTION
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THE DISSECTION

He stands in the center of the small room to make himself known. Although he  calmly utters words that sound like confusion and fear, the response he receives is out of tempo with the urgency he feels. And so he stands, right there, in the middle of this untidy little office, amid busy people going...

TWENTY-ONE DAYS
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TWENTY-ONE DAYS

I nearly drowned. At least that’s how it felt. To burst out laughing under water. To imagine taking my last breath fighting waves instead of cancer. Wouldn’t that be a curious thing? This is the second day home, away from the constant touching and attending, away from hours of intensive therapies and needful bodies with...

ALL OF EVERYTHING
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ALL OF EVERYTHING

This is not my natural habitat. Sand, made even stickier from rain the night before, clings to glossed lips, bare back and hair and I am more aware of everything lying still even while my insides stir. Give me a project, like raking seaweed from the sand. This is where my restless spirit resides, in...

The Art of the Free Fall
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The Art of the Free Fall

In the Flat Penché the torso is in the laying position with legs straight and split apart as far as possible, front to back. The lower leg is extended backward from the torso, the upper leg is extended forwards. The hand on the same side as the back leg holds the back leg at the...

Is It Obvious?
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Is It Obvious?

There was a time I spoke frequently in public. At the end of the engagement, if Ron was there, I would ask him the inevitable questions that came no matter where we were— Did my voice shake?Did I come across relatable?Was my message clear? now, no matter the circumstance of my life, I’ve decided the...

What We Carry
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What We Carry

Unaccompanied Cello, Suite No. 1 in G major. The strings weep but there exists between the notes no indication of sorrow, only this sweetness that reverberates in both instrument and soul. Unaccompanied. Despite the poured-out goodness of others, there are some journeys we must take alone. This one pulls me in like a page-turner. Despite the often...

The Mystery of Ourselves
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The Mystery of Ourselves

It is precisely because we resist the darkness in ourselves that we miss the depths of the loveliness, beauty, brilliance, creativity, and joy that lie at our core—Thomas Moore, Dark Nights of the Soul When all this started, I would take a deep breath and gather myself, as if calling on all the strongest parts...

What We Know
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What We Know

Intro - This week I will begin the writing of a Case Study, along with my Integrative Oncologist, to share my intimate cancer journey with others, so that lives can be healed…and changed. This is what is essential, that is, that God uses everything we are, everything we’ve been through, to make His way into...